That's me...the Renaissance Man. I've always heard this described as a good thing, but I'm not so sure. Pretty much my entire life, I've always been pretty good at well, pretty much everything, however not really good at well, anything. I remember hearing the term "renaissance man" probably my freshman year in highschool in english class, and identifying with the phrase. This coming from a guy who's always been somewhat athletic, somewhat intelligent, and pretty much have this idea that I can do or learn anything as long as I put my mind to it. And that being true, I find myself involved and interested in everything in life. Even at this point, as silly as this will sound, I still have dreams and tell myself that I could feasibly go on to play professional baseball, or be a poker pro, or a firefighter, or a youth pastor, or full time missions, or worship leader, or own my own business, or make a lot of extra cash in the real estate market, or do anything that catches my attention for a little bit. And what I find myself doing is somewhat chasing all of these dreams at the same time. I was talking with my mom on the phone yesterday, and I was telling her how I am always overcommitted, and how I'd like to eventually get free from that. For one thing, committing to everything else leaves little time to develop and maintain relationships, which is a neccessity, and it also leaves little time to actually make any progress on any of these things. I've come to the conclusion that maybe they misnamed the phrase.Instead of renaissance man, it should be the "ADD man" or an indecissive man, or something of the sort. Don't worry, I'm not going back on the ADD kick again. Actually what happened with that is I went to our county psychologist, cause I thought that's what you had to do, and then he said he wasn't sure...I could or couldn't have it, and then he referred me to my doctor. Well, I went to her and she wanted to do all the tests and crap over again, and I said forget it, I didn't have the time or willingness to do it all over again. One of the guys at work laughed when I told him that, and he said "see, you do have ADD" I laughed, but don't really care at this point. I think it's more of an inability to focus on one goal that drives me crazy, not neccessarily ADD. So back to my conversation with my mom. I was telling her that Bob and I were talking the other day about how much we could do for this youth group and this town if we were to both work full time together for the church. The possibilities would be endless. It got me thinking about Jesus sending the disciples out in pairs, and how much more effective they would be that way, than doing it alone, and how that was their sole purpose. To spread the gospel. Well, when you put it like that, it makes life much easier. But here we are with this multi-purpose life. Or at least in our minds. We have to get nice houses, and have a nice family, and drive nice cars, and that's just the material side of our "needs." What if we actually lived with our main priority being to spread the gospel. What would that mean in terms of actions in our lives? We all say that God is our #1 priority, but when it comes down to the priority list, he's generally #3 or #4, in terms of what to get done.
I was looking at a friend of a friends blog, about how his hobby was to create and shape environments and events for students based on missions, culture and service. How focused is that! That's freakin awesome. If I could be focused primarily on one thing. If that could be my hobby, I think I would be a lot more effective. I told my mom this on the phone "Each person has a limited amount of resources to expend. Whether they focus them all on one place, or spread them out over 50 things, there is only so much they can put out. " I find myself in that boat, spreading my finite resources over 50 things, making me effectively ineffective at really anything. Does this make sense to anyone?
I guess this is the question. What's your purpose? And do your actions agree with your words?