Thursday, March 30, 2006

My Glass Box

this is an audio post - click to play

My Glass Box

She sits out on the corner
A blanket for her warmer
As she shivers from the frost
Of their cold stares

So many times she's been branded
Attacked by the bandits of a
Of a pious Christian world

Her rags won't stop the bleedin
For the love that she's been needin
As she cries herself to sleep at night again

Chorus
But I'll stand inside of my glass box
Shake my fist and throw my rocks
And feel proud as I correct you of your sins (x2)

He slinks on by
Just trying to hide
His social leaprosy

His head hung low
If they could only know
His fear reveals his need

Cast down and out
I'm far too proud
To reach that far beneath

Chorus
So I'll stand inside of my glass box
Shake my fist and throw my rocks
And feel proud as I correct you of your sins(x2)

I do it once again

Don't you know
That the first shall be the last
And the last shall be the first
They'll feast at a wedding
As you watch
From your box lookin in

Chorus
So I'll step outside of my glass box
Lend a hand and drop my rocks
And feel proud as we go walkin hand in hand (x2)

I do it once again


Thanks to Ben Cloud for his constant inspiration towards social justice, and how Christians should truly portray the love of Christ

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

A Better Plan

So, the 7 project got canceled/postponed until next fall. Basically, the school board has had a lot of pressure on them this year, resulting in two filed lawsuits against the school district, and their school being on CNN one night. So the end result, some people thought that the assembly we were going to bring into the schools had religious content (which it doesn't), and they complained to the board. The board (who we had asked before if they would like a presentation on this, so they would be educated and have answers) got hit by surpise on this, and decided that they would rather just ride this school year out with no more law suits and no more being in the national news...All of which we completely understand, and I can say that in their shoes, I'd probably do the same thing. They didn't tell us no, just not now. We are going to see about doing it next fall in Sept maybe.

...What that means is more time to get more churches in on it, get the assembly in up to 4 more schools, and be even better prepared and more effecient that we would've been tonight.

...What happened instead...

We decided to get the four youth groups together for a night of fun, worship and prayer. I think only 3 showed up, and it was small pieces of them, due to short notice, but it was AWESOME! Two people got saved, we played games and hung out for an hour, had a great time doing worship, and had a rockin prayer time. We also got to fellowship among the groups and get to know eachother all better. Also, we decided we're going to do this once a month, and I think, Lord willing, that it will be great for our groups spiritual growth, and that we will be able to effectively reach out to more kids and bring them along, and ultimately see many salvations come from this.

So, we thought we had it figured out. We were going to do the 7 project, it was gonna be awesome, and lots of kids would get saved.

What God had planned...

We would do the 7 project later and better, more kids would come, more would get saved, and we would form a community wide ministry that has huge capabilities if we keep God as the center, and our youth groups would be encouraged and grow spiritually.

Lord you truly are amazing
Your ways are so confounding
You had a plan from the beggining of time
Thank You for loving me into it
Come open me up
To seeing Your ways
They're so much better than mine
Come flood this heart
And humble my pride
Your ways are better than mine
Let me follow
All my days
Your loving truth
Your perfect ways

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Worship Distraction

Well, I should really be doing laundry, filing my important papers stack that is lying all over the house, and cleaning my room, but I'm listening to Chris Tomlin right now, and am having the hardest time pulling myself away from the computer. I really want to go over to the church and plug in and just worship for a bit, but then I wouldn't get this stuff done. Oh well...maybe I'll do my laundry real quick, then call it good...

God has been doing some cool things with me in worship right now. I've had the opportunity to lead the last 3 sunday mornings, and they've all been great. Not only the sound, but really feeling like as a congregation, we're entering into God's presence, and then getting to look out, and see people who are lost in worship. That's been my goal in worship lately, is helping/allowing people to get to that place in worship, where it's just them and God...to be lost.

Not only has the last 3 weeks been good, but I feel like recently, God's been giving me more gifting in that area. That vocally I've been improving, that I've been improving as a guitar player, as a leader with the team (in getting people on the same page and same vision), and even like he's given me more freedom and creativity in some of my own stuff I've been working on. It's been really cool, cause sometimes I get to that point where as a musician, I feel like I plateau. Like I'm not really improving, but staying the same. And especially with my own stuff...I'm never content with the end result, and I ALWAYS get musicians block. But recently I think God's been giving me more creativity, and improving all those areas. My only hope is that I can continue to give Him every ounce of glory that will come from anything, and that I can use it help people enter into a deeper relationship with the Father.

Well, Chris brought out his cd's, so I started updating my itunes library, and that means no, I still haven't done my laundry, and it's been like an hour! Oh well...I've got a couple more cd's to update, and then I'll do my laundry, and then off to meetings, and then to view that building at 4:30...

Love yall...

Alright OP here goes!

Four Jobs I've had...(how bout the four I have now!)
Youth Pastor of River City Vineyard (Yes obe...I understand completely!)
Worship Pastor of River City Vineyard (also vol.)
Vol. Firefighter
City of Leavenworth Firefighter (Praise God! I love this job!)

Four Movies I Can Watch Over and Over...
The Princess Bride (you use that word a lot...I do not think it means what you think it means)
Finding Nemo
Extreme Days
Mr. and Mrs. Smith
(not much of a movie guy)

Four TV Shows I Love to Watch...
CSI
UFC Unleashed
American Idol
NFL/NBA anytime

Four Places I've Been on Vacation...
Hawaii
Alabama
Washington
California

Four Favorite Dishes...
Spaghetti
Lasagna
Steak
Whatever Mike and Kathleen happen to be cooking that night!

Four Websites I Visit (somewhat) daily...
www.biblegateway.com
www.youtube.com
www.blogger.com (all your blogs)
The Vineyard Gilbert Worship Team sunday playlist and practice player (too bad it hasn't been used in a while)

Four Places I'd Rather Be...
Arizona visiting some of my favorite friends and family
Surfing in Hawaii
Leading an extreme youth trip (you know taking a bunch of kids hiking, rafting, mtn climbing...all the while drawing nearer to God!)
Leading Worship for just about anyone, but hopefully someday a larger congregation
Let's see...it's mon...then Col... (???)

Four Blogs I'd Like to See do This Quiz...
ThinkJump...
Mom...
Kat...
Jon...







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Life and all it's wonderful business

Hey all! Yeah, yeah, yeah...been a while...I know...but other than Ben, the rest of you do this too occasionally! lol...anyway...what's happenin in KS??? Good question...

Well, as most of you know, I've been looking at buying a house recently, and had some frustrations with finding just the right place, and the right price, and all that...well, here's some recent updates on that. I'm actually looking at buying a small apartment building instead...either that or a duplex. I think I'd prefer the apt. building, but I'm looking at a lot of different options. I'm going with the McKinney's to look at a building today with 5 units (2-2bd, 2-1bd, and one eff...I'm not sure what an eff is...) Well, most of these buildings and duplex's are cheaper than a house, and here's how it works out for me. I've spoken with Eric, Chris, and heard that Jason's sister would all like to rent from me if I buy a building. Well, out of 5 units, that's 3 renters that I know and trust, and hopefully we can all help eachother out. From there, it's just filling in the holes. Eric and I will most likely share a place until next Aug, which brings me to my next topic...The Internship! (and when I move out, he can fill that with a wife if he ever gets married! Not that he is...just saying, if he ever did...)

Bob and I had proposed to Dave a while back, that we run an internship at the church, and take one of the top rooms and turn it into a dorm. With this, you can have one or two people living at the church, working the coffeeshop/bookstore, working as youth and worship pastors, doing VLI, and doing whatever else needs to be done. Well, the board agreed on it, and now are slowly taking the steps to put this in place. This will begin in Aug. Well, I wasn't sure for a bit if I was going to do this after all, because I'd just been too busy, and was deathly afraid of throwing VLI on top of all the other responsibilities I already had. Well, I came to a decision on Sun., and let Dave and Bob know that I am going to do the internship and VLI, and I'll just have to count on God's goodness and grace to remain sane, and to also give me favor at work.

I have an incredible opportunity to really learn a lot and progress in the fire service through the Leavenworth Fire Dept. They are willing to send me all over to get training, and promote people who are willing to work hard and get an education. In fact, this Fri, Sat, Sun, I will be in Topeka attending and Intro to Tech Rescue course that entails rope rescue, water rescue, etc...it's only a beginners course, but it's a start, and the more I learn, the farther I can go.

The thing is, for a while, I wasn't sure if I wanted to do the internship and VLI, or take this next year, finish my degree, and take as many fire courses as I could (Fire behavior, Fire ground tactics, arson investigation, etc...) Well, I decided to do VLI and the internship, and at the same time do this next thing...

I spoke with a couple good friends of mine who help teach EMT labs over at KCK community college, and asked about whether they need help or not. Well, they said they believe they do, and they'd talk to the head lady for me, and get me some paperwork. The reason I was interested in this is because if I do this, I get free tuition, and it's only 1-4x's a month, and a couple hrs a day. And there's no preparation involved. It's simply helping students work through their EMT skills, and making sure they're prepared for their boards. Well, I found out that this pays as well! I thought it was vol. with free tuition, well, it pays $9 an hr., which isn't bad considering...and I was kinda looking for a source of some additional income, as small as it may be.

Oh, one other thing is that a buddy of mine was playing down at one of the irish pubs/restaraunt the other day, and I went down to watch...well, about 1 am, he ran out of stuff to play, and the only people left in the bar were friends of ours, so he let me play and sing. It went great! Everybody loved it...it may have been because they were all slammed by then...lol...but really, it went well, and they generally pay about $65 for a couple hrs of music, and that'd just be fun for me...so I'm going to see if I couldn't do that once a month or so as well.

So anyway, those things sorta solve the additional income I was looking for, and I will still be able to take probably 1 class a semester towards my degree and fire stuff, take VLI, and get some additional income here and there.

I know...it sounds like a lot, but the good thing is that all of those things (EXCEPT FOR the internship and VLI) are only once a month or so, which I think I can handle. There will most likely be some other changes as well that might free up some time for me, but those are still in discussion, and I won't know for a little while at least. So, like I said, I will need a heavy dose of God's grace as I try and handle all these things, and also his favor on me at work as I put the internship and ministry above my education and career at this moment. So, that's what's new here...

Things to pray for...
God's grace...
God's favor...
Opportunities to play and sing somewhere once a month...
Wisdom in dealing with people, property, and finances...
And even more of heart to know Him deeper...